Awe man! It's been almost a month since I've posted anything!!!

Life has been full of busyness since school has started again. I want to draw more, but there's work (which no one else seems to have) and I really want to learn Japanese. That on-top of practicing guitar, it's often quite difficult to make 'finished' art projects.

Life has been filled with its ups and downs, like normal. Recently though I've been feeling an overwhelming sense of loneliness. There's a horrible lack of affection in my life. I often blame myself for this, for I am an incredibly depressing an boring person. (and one should not be so self negative!!!)

I went on a date. I don't know how to date girls! We chatted and walked around a park. I had a good time and she said she did too... but that was that. Nothing special and never to happen again I guess.

When I was in the USA I at least had my cats. When I was feeling lonely I'd give them a big squeeze and they'd get all purr-ful. I was thinking of getting a plant or something, but I have the feeling that a plant won't give the same affection as my cats.

Hooray for sob stories! I'm getting older, uglier, and stupider!!! There's so much to look forward to!!!

Been playing some video games... umm... Yesterday I bitched out a Miyazaki movie because the day was saved with the power of love. Maybe if you've got a girl wrapped around you, one may enjoy the movie ("Ohh, the movie was so pretty and beautiful, let's make out!"). I found it silly and a little depressing. If the day was saved with the power of rock and roll, I'd feel differently about the whole thing.

If you have, thanks for reading my sad little rant.

Love you all,

-Alan

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